I’m Samantha. I like to cook, eat and drink coffee, I love my cat. I love to read, I have this stack of books next to my bed. I like crossword puzzles, I like the radio, and my shuffle. I am being taught how to sew by my aunt on an antique sewing machine. I have a boyfriend who I can talk to about anything. I have a sister who is my best friend. I am really close to my family. I love to write but I never have the time. I clip coupons and actually read the Sunday paper that comes with them. I am going to get into law school. I work 50 hours a week at a job that I have come to love even though a lot of people wouldn’t consider it rewarding. I woke up this morning and just didn’t want to hit snooze. I sat up and watched the sun come up over houses. I thought about how far I’ve come since a year ago. I thought about how I am finally home, and everything is finally falling into place.
The thing is, tumblrs, I have grown into something much less interesting than I was when I started this. The last two years have been full of self realization. I had highs and lows here, I met my future husband here, learned a lot about body acceptance and checking my privilege here (these lessons granted me an understanding of people that I will hold onto forever). But I feel like I have reached adulthood (working, living, cooking, and eating on my own, handling my own finances, maintaining a household, setting my own personal needs aside for those of my family and coworkers, going to bed at 10 every night etc.), whereas the general population of tumblr is still back where I was a year or two ago. You are all just getting into or out of college, you are all loving and fighting and making leaps and bounds. You are there, I am here. I know who I am now, and I have hopes that this person sticks around. I want to settle, I want quiet, I want stability. I hope to find a blogging site with an older clientele. I am not saying I expect anyone to enjoy my inevitable posts about insurance claims going missing and how you can’t buy frozen rhubarb out of season anymore (why?). But honestly, my dashboard is hard to age because there aren’t a lot of you old settled folk out there on tumblr, and I just do not find a lot of it enriching or enlightening anymore. Tumblr was something I needed, but I no longer need it. I am going to keep the site up because I don’t want to lose all the memories from when I met and fell in love with my boyfriend. But I will not be posting, and I will be trying very hard to ween myself off mindless dash scrolling. If I do post again, expect it to be a link to a new blog, which you may or may not enjoy.
The best of luck and love to you all.
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